I once believed in the literal New World Order conspiracy, the same one touted by late 90’s Alex Jones. I believed that our presidents Regan, Bush Sr., and Clinton were part of a group of the elite few that were trying to put all the world’s governments under one dictator. I remember watching a video that ‘explained’ the truth that I had been missing. They used a few different methods to dupe me into believing their perceived authority. They would make fantastical claims and my young, underdeveloped brain thought it was so outlandish it must be true. I never crossed into the realm of believing in lizard people, but I was shamefully promoting same sex marriage as the only way we should live.
I held ideals that would take away women’s rights. I was ignorant and I failed to see the hurt I was creating. I didn’t fully understand the message they were convincing me with but I honestly felt that if the world was under one government then we could overcome all the suffering and hardships. It exposed me to injustices in the world that I wasn’t aware of, and it gave me tools to fight back against the system. I failed to fully understand that these tools were nothing more than ways to discriminate against people. The reason I believed it so much was because I have hope for global peace and unification.
I was naive and thought this was the only way to create a world utopia. My entire reasoning was based on a deep emotional need to see compassion spread to everyone, and to see these injustices addressed and corrected. If we revolted against these evil powers and destroyed the systems of oppression we could conquer world hunger, disease, and even provide basic infrastructure to countries that had been devastated by war. I gave up the belief because that wasn’t what the conspiracy was about. The truth behind the conspiracy was to give motivation for violence against select minority communities. To create a global nationalist ideology. I was ignorant of the antisemitism and blatant bigotry that was the foundation for the conspiracy, and it was because of a close friend of mine that I was able to see past these illusions.
He simply asked me a few questions about the conspiracy and the more I openly talked to him about it, the more he challenged the absurdities from an outside perspective. After my friend explained the hidden messages of hatred, I realized how contrary to my internal moral system the conspiracy was. I felt ashamed for believing in something that was used to spread hate. He knew it was nothing more than falsehoods all along, but he was patient and let me walk myself out of that ideology. And I am grateful for my friend.
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